Resolutions

FUCK .



Is that all i can do? walking away? where's the old me? wheres the burning demon in me always having my back , pushing me to the limit ? has it disappeared? no its there just staying low .. i know now . It wants me to stand on my own , walking tall , head up high . Now look where i am , day 70 of training pushing hard , overcoming obstacles like they are twigs . But whats the use of pushing myself knowing i worked hard for nothing . Now i have taken it slow as N levels are nearing , as my life is playing in front of my eyes , with an unclear future ahead . Yeah i will , i'll get to the poly i want with my own resolution , i'll show you cocky bastards that everyone can succeed with that little change in resolve .

Days

Days past and i finally write on the blog which i created on impulse . i guess this will be the place i will let my feelings flow as i rather not keep them trapped inside . How i remember this blog signifies our old relationship , never had i taught i'd failed to keep a promise which led to regrets over time . Well enough of the old , in with the new . Currently sick again ..i dont know why , perhaps this is god's way of saying i have not being doing what is expected of me .. Well im not one to give up easily thus i face my obstacles head on . Thats all i guess.. hmm will make more post next time aite (: